Better Day Today
Work was a lot better today, it was nice and relaxing, I got to catch up with a colleague I don't get to see very often and was able to just get on with my work. During lunch I got to sit outside in the garden enjoying the sunshine. The only downside was a few messages from a "friend" but we'll get to that later.
There's Only So Much I Can Do
After work I called into the shopping centre on the way home and stopped by the coffee shop for a medium cinnamon latte and a bacon and cheese toastie. I must have sat for about an hour just chilling and people watching. Although this isn't anything amazing and most people do it regularly, for me it's a treat. I love just sitting back without a care and watching the world go by.
So, these messages...
I have this "friend" a person I know who is really struggling through life. He has some health problems that is stopping him from getting on with his life. This is causing him to lash out a lot at the people he comes in contact with. His family have turned their backs on him, his friends have all took a step back, he has no job and is struggling to pay his way in life.
He has asked me if he can rent my spare room out but I've had to say no. Although I want to help him and I hate seeing somebody suffer I know that would make my life a lot harder and that he is the cause of some of my problems. However, I have let him spend a few nights here and there to keep him warm, comfortable and fed.
We got into a bit of an argument today, he believes that because I'm not in the same physical pain that he is then there is no reason for me to feel bad, that my depression isn't real and I'm not allowed to get upset over any of the bad that has happened in my life.
I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do. I want to help him but at the same time I know it's dragging me down. Sometimes I feel like he can't be helped =(
